Saturday, May 12, 2007

Fair weather, nasty necks and good reads



I am reading this book, have already given it to my friend Rachel as a b-day gift, and hope others will read it because....hold onto your pants (or skirt)....it is utterly orthodox. It is a TAN book married to Erma Bombeck. It borders as an "occasion of sin," but, I would argue, less so than living in the world does, because, as you are reading this, you are thinking (thinking, what a concept, in this day and age !?!). And, the authors give us much to think about.

Due to the loving interest of my friend Rachel (the one with the 29th b-day a few days back (: ), I am also going to consider eliminating these foods from my diet in my ongoing attempt to reduce the chronic pain and inflammation that I live with. I have fibromyalgia and lots of painful arthritis, including disc disease in my cervical spine -- literally, a "pain in the neck". Several weeks back, I began the most effective treatment heretofor at this clinic in Marietta, Georgia.

I am enjoying the fair weather here in Georgia, while it lasts. We are wrapping up certain homeschooling activities and gearing up for some fun summer learning. Joy-Beth is looking forward to going to a 3o-day math camp this summer -- not!!! She is sitting here as I write this and we are both ready for a break from math. Next semester we will tackle Saxon 5/4, but, first, the pool.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

The Painted Veil

Last Friday, I finally rejoined my neighborhood book club to discuss the novel by Somerset Maugham, The Painted Veil.* It was a fine evening -- full of interesting discussion, good food and drink, and warm with laughter.

*Here is link: http://www.amazon.com/Painted-Veil-W-Somerset-Maugham/dp/0307277771.

I have two university degrees in literature and used to consume fiction like water, but, upon my conversion, I switched over to nonfiction. I was hungry to catch up on all the missed catechises. I delved into Church history, the lives of the saints and spiritual classics. I re-read some of Flannery O'Connor's short stories, but loved her letters and the transcripts of some of her speeches collected in a volume called The Habit of Being. I read Walker Percy's essays and made a stab at one of his novels, but fiction was hard for me. I read some of John Cheever's stories and a few stories by Evelyn Waugh. If it were not for this book club, I think I would have given up on novels altogether.

I loved Maugham's novel. While he was not a practicing Catholic, it is a Catholic book because it expresses the absolutes; it moralizes. Many writers of fiction these days are the literary equivalent of radio's "shock jocks". Trashy people doing trashy things sells. Sin is glamorized. A fine work of fiction, like compelling music, takes us through the hills and valleys of some one's life, and leaves us changed. Real hope is expressed in art that describes the enormous capacity for change that every life holds. That, to me, is the problem with alot of modern and "postmodern" art and literature -- it is hopeless.

A story does not have to have a positive outcome or "happy ending" to express theological hope. In fact, O'Connor's work often stumps people -- what was that about??? She said something to the effect that, for the spiritually blind, one had to paint in bold strokes. I think she saw her stories as being like a jolting shot of espresso, a wake up call to an America that was flushing itself down the toilet. She practiced her faith faithfully and with her entire being. Her every waking moment was prayerful and recollected. Her stories, which I first read in college, made me want to know more about the writer behind the words. Her artistry planted a seed in me, planted a series of questions that emerged...something like this: "What is wrong with man that he is capable of such evil? what is wrong with me that I can have everything in the world and still not feel satisfied? is God real? did God really live and breathe and suffer as a man? and, if so, why would he do such an incredible thing?"

Slowly, over the course of a year, from 1999-2000, these questions were answered and other questions emerged. Other answers mercifully emerged too, and I was a goner. I was in love. I was in love with the Catholic faith, and with God's answer to the problem of being human --Mother Church and her seven sacraments. I confessed my sins and climbed the mountaintop of the Holy Eucharist, ate God and wondered how I'd gone a second without such Love burning in my heart. Over the years since my conversion, I have shed many tears of joy and sorrow, but I am alive in faith where, before, I was dead in the world. Like the opium-stoned painted Chinese lady in The Painted Veil, I lived for years as a "kept woman," kept captive by worldly pleasures and enticements. Mother Church offers the only truly alternative culture. Her teachings are sound and her guidance is loving. To retreat from our sin is liberating. It is risky and daring and never a "done deal". It is full of hope.

Here is a quote and bio that I took from mycatholic.com:

Withdraw your heart from the world before God takes your body from it.
– St. John of Avila

St. John of Avila (1499-1569)Born to a wealthy family, John gave his
fortune to the poor. A Jesuit priest, he preached throughout Spain. He was the
spiritual director of St. Teresa of Avila and three other saints.




Friday, April 27, 2007

To blog or not to blog

It has been 10 days since my last post; and, we have been so busy living that I am not writing much. I attended my third Christ Renews His Parish CRHP ("Chirp") retreat this past weekend and experienced some amount of post-Chirpdom depression most of the week. The kids have been great and their work inspires me to pray harder and work harder. We ordered new books by mail; we love Adoremus Books. Times are hectic and noisy, yet here at our home, we often do not feel the hustle and bustle of the world. Cutting off from cable television four years ago has made such an improvement in our quality of life. I mostly watched A&E, HGTV and EWTN, but now I read more, cook more and talk to my friends and family more. I think I am more open to having people over as well, cause I cannot flip on the t.v. for company. And, yes, I love being invited over to my friends' houses. I am blessed to have so many friends. Some are active in homeschooling. I am often socializing with children, which I love. That being said, my husband and I are overdue for a date night.

I am always in need of being more organized. The reason I should blog more is that it will help me manage me-- and, trust me, I am very unruly <:! My Catholic faith is such a true friend to me. Receiving the Lord in the Holy Eucharist, being absolved in public in the confessional, "Son-bathing" at Adoration and clinging to traditional devotions like the Rosary and the Saints.....all these facets of Jesus's Ecclesia are deeply personal to me and make me strive to live life for Heaven. I am constantly falling short of this goal, but the goal is very clear. I think the children, in their untainted way, really understand what living their lives for God means. They understand this because they understand who Jesus is, why He came and what He came to do. I hope these blessed days will remain in them. I pray that these days are like money in the bank, spiritually speaking that is.

I semi-regularly visit this blog: http://happycatholic.blogspot.com/2007/04/fine-art-friday_27.html and, I was so excited to find this video with one of my favorite contemporary Christian singers, Sara Groves:

http://www.glyphnet.com/jeremiah/JeremiahLarge.html

And, look at this amazing Cathedral in, of all places, West Virginia: http://www.socalpix.com/wheelinglarge/index.html

May God bless anyone who takes the time to read all of these ramblings. Like the "happy Catholic," I too may not always be happy, but I am so happy and blessed to be Catholic. It is truly a case of His body and blood enlivening my weak and sin-prone flesh.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

"Domine, quo vadis?"

St. Francis of Assisi prayer:
Lord,
make me an instrument of your peace.

Where there is hatred, let me sow love; where
there is injury, pardon;where there is doubt,
faith;where there is despair, hope;where there is darkness, light;where there is sadness, joy;
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be
consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to
love.
For it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are
pardoned; and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

I joked with my friend Sara (and no, I was not talking to myself...) that I had "blogged and burned". We have been really busy preparing for our TORCH dramas. Joy-Beth was in Pinocchio this last Saturday, and Maggie will act in The Hobbit this weekend. I will creep out of my blog slacking with the above prayer. It is one of my favorite prayers.

The prayer of the month of March was "Domine, quo vadis?" "Lord, where are you going?" The children and I prayed this from our hearts. We are really trying to follow Him. Our Lord Jesus Christ asks alot of us, but His companionship is so sweet. We are so blessed with the families in our homeschooling co-op; the cooperation we have experienced in this group brings our religion to life. Our Catholic faith is beautiful. It is lived. I pray after taking the Eucharist, "Lord, I am in You and You are in me." As a convert, I experience Holy Mother Church and her children as my family. All persons are God's children, and, I believe that when the Lord met Peter leaving Rome that day, He was yet again revealing to a besieged and suffering humanity (through this encounter with the very human St. Peter) that God became man to suffer with him. He encouraged Peter to turn around, walk back in to Rome and be brutally killed on a cross in close imitation of his Savior. Peter did not have to follow Him back. He could have kept walking and returned at a safer time. Our Catholic faith is not about safety. It is sometimes about comfort. It is often risky. It is always about Love.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

The Catholic Passion

Well, the Norse myths were a real flop!

The weather here has been fair and beautiful. We have not made it yet to a Stations of the Cross, as we have been busy on Fridays practicing for our upcoming plays, "Pinocchio" and "The Hobbit".

Jay is starting to read. I am gearing up to do some standardized testing for the girls, not my favorite, but necessary.

I am reading David Scott's book, The Catholic Passion. Here is an article about it on Godspy:
http://www.godspy.com/faith/The-Catholic-Passion-Rediscovering-the-Beauty-and-Power-of-the-Faith-by-David-Scott.cfm

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

Lent and Norse Myths


I am off to bed to read some of these stories to Jay and Joy-Beth. Maggie is sewing. Our "Lenten resolution," as a family, is to eat out less. For the first time in years, I shopped for food for the week and, so far, so good. We are gearing up for the girls to be in their plays in April with our homeschooling coop. This is short and sweet, as I am very tired after a big day in the sun. The weather here was heavenly, and we took advantage of it and had lunch and lessons on our back deck. The breeze and sun were refreshing. I read yesterday's Mass readings in my Magnificat, along with Evening Prayers, and was very comforted by the Psalm. It was Psalm 79: 6, 9, 11 and 13:

R. (see 103:10a) Lord, do not deal with us according to our sins.

Remember not against us the iniquities of the past; may your compassion quickly come to
us, for we are brought very low.

R. Lord, do not deal with us according to our sins.

Help us, O God our savior, because of the glory of your name; Deliver us and
pardon our sinsfor your name’s sake.

R. Lord, do not deal with us according to our sins.

Let the prisoners’ sighing come before you; with your great power free
those doomed to death. Then we, your people and the sheep of your pasture, will
give thanks to you forever; through all generations we will declare your
praise.

R. Lord, do not deal with us according to our sins.

Monday, February 26, 2007

The Catholic Passion and Charlotte Mason

I am reading David Scott's wonderfully written book, The Catholic Passion. Also, I cannot get over how close the Protestant, British educator, Charlotte Mason, is to the thinking and writings of Pope John Paul II. I am really enjoying this book by Karen Andreola:

http://www.amazon.com/Charlotte-Mason-Companion-Personal-Reflections/dp/1889209023

I wish I had learned the teaching technique of narrating years ago. I read Jay and Joy-Beth each a different tale from Aesop's Fables. Each then dictated to me. Each child told me the story in her/his own words, and I wrote it down. Jay was very proud of this, as was Joy-Beth. After I wrote Joy-Beth's narration down, she copied it. Her spoken grammar is well beyond her grade level, so this is a way to get that good grammar down in writing. As was recommended in the Andreola book above, I chose very short stories to begin with. It is very challenging for them to put the stories into their own words. Joy-Beth was so proud of her copywork because she dictated it. Months ago, my friend Lisa got me interested in this after I saw her daughter's nature and Bible notebooks, which were illustrated as well. We did not illustrate today's stories, but I hope they will do so in the future. I had a day of wonder and blessings. The weather here was heavenly!

Thursday, February 22, 2007

St. Paul to the Corinthians and to us

Yesterday, these two verses from Chapter 10 of St. Paul's first letter to the Corinthians lightened my load. They are the famous verses 12 and 13:

12: Therefore, whoever thinks he is standing secure should take care not to fall.

13: No trial has come to you but what is human. God is faithful and will not let you be tried beyond your strength; but with the trial he will also provide a way out, so that you may be able to bear it.

One of my favorite saints is Padre Pio, now known as St. Pio. EWTN's website has the following, and it is so inspiring:

http://www.ewtn.com/padrepio/index.htm

When I was really ill after Jay was born, I fought hard to live. As it ought to be, my prayers and those of some of my family and many of our friends, were weapons. Lent is an opportunity to look at Jesus on His Holy Cross and realize that our God suffers as we suffer. Compassion means "to suffer with". Clearly, there are many ways to go about suffering with someone in need. I have been as needy as they come, and I marvelled at the compassion of my God and my fellow man.

As the first Sunday of Lent quickly approaches, I want to encourage anyone reading this to suffer with someone during this Lent 2007. It is not about "tit for tat," meaning to give for the sake of reward. True compassion gives without counting the cost. Christ demonstrates to us what our interior disposition ought to look like. It, at times, looks like Jesus on His bloody Cross. We must not shy away from the Cross. Read the conversion story of Edith Stein. She was murdered by the Nazis. She embraced her suffering for the salvation of her own soul and the salvation of others. This is an utterly counter-cultural way of approaching life, as things stand today.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

George Washington's Breakfast






We read the Jean Fritz book yesterday to kick off a mini George Washington/American colonial history study this week. Today is Jay's birthday -- praise be to God! We are de-cluttering our basement and selling a bunch of toys at our parish's indoor "yard" sale this weekend. We will read this inspiring book, George Washington, today. I want to learn a bit more about this award-winning married couple who created such beautiful books for children. I'll link it later. Gotta run 'cause the kids are really excited for Jay's birthday festivities! At least I do not have to cross a freezing river. I only have to wake up my stiff body.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

A Quiet Moment

Our son, Jay, turns six years old this coming Tuesday. He wants to be crowned "King of Mardi Gras," and, thanks to his kindergarten coop teacher, Mrs. Doyle, he is the one person in the family ready and willing to sacrifice for Lent. He made a cross, and, on one side, his teacher wrote his vow to stop hitting his sisters (who often hit him first, I might add). On the other side of this cross, he said that he wants to tuck himself into bed at night. Jay has a talent for drawing that is so beautiful. Jay is a gift!

I need to get busy typing up the bios for our "Hobbit" playbill. Maggie is working very well on her own. She is a math whiz. She and I want to find time to do more together, especially with literature and writing. Maggie is a gift!

Joy-Beth and I are reading the original Black Beauty, with Jay listening in. Joy-Beth has such a good balance between working with me and doing work independently. Joy-Beth is a gift!

I re-discovered a favorite artist, Mary Engelbreit, and put a free snowman backdrop on my computer. Her artwork is inspiring and delightful.

I want to learn how to post photos on this blog and use flicker, or something like that, to have a slideshow. As I prayed this morning, I realized that I am heavy with worry about many things, as is my temperament. God gave me the primary melancholic temperament, with a secondary dose of phlegmatic. This works out for the good in my marriage as my husband is a choleric. I think he might be primary and secondary choleric <: !!! just kidding, Jerry...Seriously, the Lord guided me at times in my life when I had little thought of Him. He cared so much for my salvation that He really performed some marvelous deeds to keep me from straying too far. He used my willing and good-hearted husband to bring me back in the fold. As Easter approaches, I ought to be more grateful to Christ Jesus as the Good Shepherd. He truly wishes that none should perish. He wants us to cooperate and help Him bring salvation to all. My "worries" are a mixed bag. Feelings of anxiety and worry often accompany persons who "have their fingers in many pies". Faith leads us to prayer, and prayer will help order these feelings and direct this "storm of worries" to God's will for our lives. His will for us needs to be discerned daily, and this cannot be done if the Christian is too busy for prayer. This is a very long-winded admission that I have not been giving myself to the Lord in prayer enough. Well, as always, Mother Church hands out the most potent medicine via her sacred liturgy; Lent is upon us -- praise be to God! I pray now to help myself and my family to live out Lent in imitation of our Savior who wants so much for us to pick up our crosses and follow Him. We carry our burdens lightly because of His saving act on the Cross. He does not ask us to heap pressure on pressure -- we often discern poorly what it is He wants us to carry. I will offer my Mass today for a good and fruitful Lent for the Sullivan family. I am not praying enough for my family. Lord, forgive me my many distractions. Mary, mother of sinners, bring us so very close to your Son. Thank you, sweet Virgin, for bearing all of Jesus's sorrows with Him. I ask the intercession of our most Blessed Mother to carry all our worries to Jesus. Please, Holy Mother of God, take them to Him and beseech Him to show us what He wills for our lives, both in big things and small. I ask this in Jesus's name. Amen.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Abe Lincoln and his mother

Yesterday was a glorious day; the weather here in Georgia was sunny and warm. We took Jaybird to play at the "castle park". It really took some of us a while to get going on "academics," but, by the end of the day, we settled in and, of all sources, plucked the "L" book from our set of World Book Encyclopedias (purchased last winter at a library sale for $10 for the whole set, including a huge atlas), and I read much of the entry on Abe Lincoln. The entry mentioned that, as a youth, Lincoln rescued a dog from a freezing cold stream, that his ax was his best friend, and that he lost his first mother at an early age due to "milk sickness." Jay was especially intrigued by this. According to the piece, cows who ate of the poisonous snakeroot plant gave, in turn, poisonous milk. Nancy Lincoln died when Abraham was 9. His father would marry again the next year to Sarah Bush Johnston, a widow with three children. Lincoln was probably referring to his stepmother when he said:
God bless my mother; all that I am or ever hope to be I owe to her.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Saints Against Totalitarianism

St. Margaret Clitherow and St. Edmund Campion are the perfect intercessors against such potential horrors as outlined in the following link about forced vaccines. My father-in-law has been a member of this physician's association for years and they are a voice of reason and good conscious that is currently lacking in the public sphere. Read and pray; pray hard that we do not go down this path in America:

http://www.aapsonline.org/nod/newsofday392.php

I am trying to put a positive spin on this, and keep my blog as close to G-rated as I can, by drawing a parallel between these times and those times under Queen Elizabeth. She may have won the battle, but Campion and Clitherow won the war. Wondering what I am talking about?
Ignatius Press just put out a new edition of Evelyn Waugh's book on Campion, which is a tale all the more exciting because it is true. The best book on Margaret Clitherow that I have found is a slender tome by TAN publishers.

When I see pictures of Prince Charles embracing Islam, I feel a mixture of sadness and anger. Sad because he is a spiritually poor man, so world-weary and confused. Angry because I am stunned by his ignorance of the history of his country.

Sts. Margaret Clitherow and Edmund Campion, please pray for us! Pray for those ignorant of history. Pray for our media. Pray for our youth!